but anyway. that wasn't what i was writing about (although it is the reason that i am writing at all. since i just cant seem to put up blogs unless i'm in the mood. and this is a great atmosphere for that mood.) instead, i want to jot down my thoughts about something the Lord told me today. and he told it to me through one of my least favorite objects in the entire world. a GPS.
i hate GPS's. they lie, they tell you to turn when there are no roads in existence, and they cripple you from actually learning the routs to get to the places you need to be. (why would i learn how to get somewhere if Garmin can just tell me in his stupid computed british accent on the way?) call me bitter. i guess i just prefer my method of getting places through landmarks and street signs rather than making sure i'm still on the pink road in the computer box. it takes all the adventure out of it. but even so, the Lord can speak through whatever he wants to, and he knows i hate Garmin so he spoke through that. what a funny thing to do.
for part of my job, i take spanish-speaking people to different medical specialists throughout the region, and as most of them live out in the most random places the mountains have to offer, i use the program's GPS to find their houses and their respective specialists' offices. (i know. it burns me a little bit every time.) yesterday, i was taking this woman to an appointment in Statesville and (as usually happens whenever Garmin rears his ugly head) the GPS took me to the wrong spot. it told me to turn onto a road called Mattheson street in Hudson North Carolina (yeah. there's a Hudson North Carolina). Garmin had the road very nicely highlighted in pink on the screen and, all geared up for this penultimate right turn, i started turning the steering wheel of my car. it was only then that i realized... this is someone's driveway. Dangit Gamin. you've done it again.
i turned into the driveway to turn around and try to find the correct place (Garmin "recalculating" in the background) and eventually drove to the last main road i was on and went the opposite direction. Garmin (this time) recalculated correctly and sent me right to where i was going, and thats when the Lord started speaking. it didnt fully register until this morning what he said to me, but it sent something to the core of my heart that i really needed to hear. in my walk through this life, if i make a wrong decision (or even one poorly directed by a fallen world) the Lord has the ability to completely reset my scheduled rout ("recalculate" if you will) and lead me again to the direction of the destination. the path might look different, as different can be necessary in order to get back on the right track, but the destination hasn't changed. and that destination is me being transformed into the likeness of christ and walking forward with ever-increasing glory (2 corinthians 3). my destination deeper into his will and deeper into his heart and deeper into his love will not change with my wrong decisions. the path to get there might. and thats fine. but i realized recently that i cannot FREEZE myself and my walk because of the fear of making a mistake (which has been the struggle for me in this season) but instead i have to believe that God has the ability and grace to recalculate my path when i mess up and redirect me towards what both he and i desire (and here's the kicker. this trust is not only limited to the decisions about whether i eat at ihop or the glory that is waffle house. this belief also has to be applied to MAJOR decisions that im not sure about. AND result in me stepping out with the faith that God will walk with me. yikes.) but i can do it. the word says that he works out all things for the good of those who love him, and have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). i love him. i have been called according to his purpose. so instead of being frozen for fear of failure i have to believe that A + B = C and that He has the ability and desire to recalculate my path and work out all things for my good.
and as my dear brother Marshall says in one of his songs, "fear, we will never feel. for my captain is always at the wheel." and my captain is better than Garmin.
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